Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Liberation in Chaos

Some believe in 'ways' to do things, that can't be broken.
Some believe in one truth, one answer, reliance on one savior.

What if there are no rules?
What if, all we have to play with are the unexpected challenges that we receive, day after day, moment after moment, throughout our complicated lives?

My paintings have taught me that excellence, beauty, liberation, and inner strength come from chaos, undetermined outcomes, and lots of mistakes and setbacks.

How am I able to create a striking painting? Or know that a move to SF won't break me?
I don't know.
But, I think I am finally trusting myself.
The choices I make for me, are the best choices. Because I know me best.

And you, and he and she...
Do not be afraid of yourself.
Inside, everything that makes you, you.. is phenomenal, strong and inspired.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Dancing Wildly

What is it that gives the body 'freedom' to dance as this woman does in this video?

Well, the answer is clear to me because ever since I was strong enough to 'bop' my head to the beat, I have been expressing my feelings physically through music.
My boyfriend on the other hand, does not get the appeal.
I secretly hope to convert him and have been doing so strategically over the years ;).

What's not to love about the soulful beat of this song? The playfulness that the dancer brings forward in her facial expressions? The wild flailing of the arms that reminds me of the "Wacky, Waving, Inflatable Arm Flailing Tube Men"?

She is alive in these 2 minutes and 48 seconds. Her connection to the music is expressed through her body movements, big and small. The sounds are hers to play with, and I love that.
I am hoping someday, I can get back into performance art because I sort of feel like I will always need that outlet to express my natural wildness inside.

Last night, I saw a new film called The Future, by filmmaker Miranda July. July performs an interesting 'dance' involving a yellow T-shirt. It's a little strange, but familiar at the same time.

This scene reminded me that my weird, strange, or wild habits are nothing to hide. Sometimes they are necessary. And if we aren't able to express ourselves without fear of judgment, then how can we ever feel truly happy?

Saturday, August 6, 2011

"I am the subject I know best"

"I paint myself because I am so often alone and because I am the subject I know best." - Frida Kahlo

I am the subject I know best.

The day that I did my Frida painting, I stopped judging my art.
I realized that I hardly ever gave myself something fun that I could do, by myself, and I shouldn't ruin the experience.
For some reason, that day, I impressed myself.
I didn't plan my next step, I didn't consult anyone. I trusted myself.
I tried not to tell myself that there was any 'right' way.
I was only me.
Because only I know me. I know me best.

Claudia Schiffer embodies Frida
Frida Purple
Inspiration for my painting.
Photography by Karl Lagerfeld
very dia6
Me last Halloween.

I just discovered that Frida was born in July. Just like me.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Recipe for a Slow Moving Summer Day

Time is slowing down
A goal is clear in sight
I wake early with the sun
pants-less through the night

Step One:
Step Two:
Handmade RocknWire Necklace
Rock Necklace made by me
CU Necklace
Step Three:
Step Four:
Thrift store find: jewelry boxes
Thrift Store Success!
Thrift store find: Little Girl w/ Rooster & Little Boy with puppy
Thrift store find: about 200 cards
Thrift store find:Glass Box
Step Five:
Time to re-design

I have been inspired to "redesign" these items. They cost between 1 and 6 dollars at a thrift store in Azusa, CA. Stay tuned for their 'upgraded' looks!
More pics here.