Monday, January 31, 2011

New Demo Reel, A Paradigm Shift


Reinel Campa- Demo Reel 2011 from Reinel on Vimeo.


what was that scar situated from afar
what was that light integrated in your mind
what have you done it's too early for everyone
wait for that sign spilling over and passed in time

come join in the last hurrah with open sores and open jaw
find one last flaw and keep it safe and free from harm
what have you done it's too early for everyone
so smile go inside come to see there is no sign


I finished it. And soon it will go on a website and those that like my work can contact me, and I will make more videos.
How did I get here? What did I want?
Looking at this reel, I feel reflective. I have accomplished a wonderful variety of content. I have studied, failed, and trained in so many skills from editing to camera to directing. I wanted to excel- to be viewed from the outside as a woman capable of doing anything her male counterparts could do. To be fully creative- to push myself, to experience things that I had idealized- that seemed so far away.

so smile, go inside, come to see there is no sign
I feel different towards the completion of this reel than reels that came before. I don't feel the same validation. I'm not really sure what it symbolizes to me now.
I have spent the last couple of years really working on myself. I have learned some great things. One is that I have so much to learn.

come join in the last hurrah with open sores and open jaw
I can rejoice in all the memories attached to each project. To the timeless feeling of my days working for Mplus and Vlaze. To a disaster of a music video. To some poor choices.
Now I'm here. And I feel good about where I am.
I still have discomfort, insecurity, and uncertainty. No doubt.
But if this reel is what I have to show for this far, I think that's pretty good.
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