Monday, January 31, 2011

New Demo Reel, A Paradigm Shift

Reinel Campa- Demo Reel 2011 from Reinel on Vimeo.

what was that scar situated from afar
what was that light integrated in your mind
what have you done it's too early for everyone
wait for that sign spilling over and passed in time

come join in the last hurrah with open sores and open jaw
find one last flaw and keep it safe and free from harm
what have you done it's too early for everyone
so smile go inside come to see there is no sign

I finished it. And soon it will go on a website and those that like my work can contact me, and I will make more videos.
How did I get here? What did I want?
Looking at this reel, I feel reflective. I have accomplished a wonderful variety of content. I have studied, failed, and trained in so many skills from editing to camera to directing. I wanted to excel- to be viewed from the outside as a woman capable of doing anything her male counterparts could do. To be fully creative- to push myself, to experience things that I had idealized- that seemed so far away.

so smile, go inside, come to see there is no sign
I feel different towards the completion of this reel than reels that came before. I don't feel the same validation. I'm not really sure what it symbolizes to me now.
I have spent the last couple of years really working on myself. I have learned some great things. One is that I have so much to learn.

come join in the last hurrah with open sores and open jaw
I can rejoice in all the memories attached to each project. To the timeless feeling of my days working for Mplus and Vlaze. To a disaster of a music video. To some poor choices.
Now I'm here. And I feel good about where I am.
I still have discomfort, insecurity, and uncertainty. No doubt.
But if this reel is what I have to show for this far, I think that's pretty good.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I've got a lightbulb, but it's still foggy in here...

For the last year or so, I have been adopting 7 principles set forth in a book by Michael Gelb, How to Think like Leonardo Da Vinci. I take one at a time, really trying to adopt the concept into my life until I can access it easily whenever I need it.

Sfumato is my current challenge.
 "Embracing ambiguity, paradox, and uncertainty"

Now this doesn't mean that we just accept ambiguity and hope it passes. EMBRACING ambiguity means that we see it for its benefits, opportunities to learn, to grow, to change! This is NOT easy. Even when I think I'm doing a good job, I can still spot areas of frustration and tension in my life. This means that I need to either embrace the tension by creating solutions and taking action, or forget about it and move on!

I want change to enter my life. I have been willing for a while now.
I have to ask myself, am I doing all that I can to get to that place I'd like to be?

What circumstances, areas of discomfort am I avoiding? Am I completely blind to them?
I feel the change approaching. I am ready for it.
But I have to keep my eyes open. I have to let it in. I am ready.

Check out one of my recent 'ambiguity' projects; an almost fully animated video for a new phone app. I had a short deadline and not a lot of materials. Plus, animation is not my area of expertise. Looking at this reminds me that you never know your full potential until you try.

The video was featured on TechCrunch! See the article and video here.