Tuesday, December 15, 2009

it's quiet.

now that school is over, i realized that I haven't fully rested. Sure, I lounged around the last three days, but my mind was occupied with my job search, unemployment, scholarships, other little projects, getting together with family, gift giving, and making sure I'm taking care of those I need to take care of.
Another thing I have noticed is my boyfriend seems to be growing weary of his situation. All the while I complain and mull over my unemployment, he has been listening intently and never pushing any of his personal sentiments on me.
Sometimes I think he is emotionally perfect, but I have to remember that is not true. What is satisfying about this reflection is I see that I am trying to be a better companion. Every day, I find it more important. Not just to the relationship, but to my personal, emotional intelligence. I want him to tell me what he is feeling, but I know that if I don't push, it might come out later, more naturally, when he is ready. Those are always wonderful surprises for me-- when he confides in me his insecurities and fears.

We don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. Will I get a call for another temp job that will hold me over for a day? Will I finally get an interview? Am I making the right choices to ensure the ideal future that I am dreaming about for myself?

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